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My temper is very short today. I just cannot stand incompetence. Or being ignored. Or people asking me to do something. Well not quite so much the last two. It's more being ignored in that I'm already doing what you asked of me, or your ignoring my answer, or you're asking me to do something that there's no way in fucking hell I'm going to do. I can't get my family to take me seriously for my

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I keep hearing this song on the radio lately. It's been touching that part of my mind that I don't really want to think about. The deep dark place that I wish I didnt go to. I've been seeing my therapist slightly more often than once a week. On top of that I saw a psychiatrist for the first time a few days ago. It was one of the most nervewracking experiences of my life. I told him more in 2

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I've been (suffering from/battling with) a bout of depression for a few weeks. I don't know why it's been so hard all of a sudden, but I haven't been entirely passive about it. I'm not ashamed of feeling this way. I don't fully understand it, and there are actions I've done while overcome with emotion that I am ashamed of, but I really am not ashamed of the feelings themselves. I have been

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It's funny how even friends I'm not terribly close with can see I'm not ok. I wonder if that means I have more close friends than i realized. I've been averaging a 3 out of 10 on a scale of okness. Last night I hung out with coworkers and had a really good time. I'd rate last night as a 7 out of 10, with that number slowly declining throughout today. Part of the reason I'm declining is because

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Today was a little tougher. I was more resolved to be mindful of how what I was doing affected others than on a specific gift. I did housework and worked on my craft swaps. Things I've been seriously neglecting during this history class. I've been in a positive attitude all day, and although there were a couple irritating moments, I didn't dwell on them, and I let them pass by me. The actual

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Hey all. It's been a while. I kind of lost focus with this blog, and while normally this would have me trying to find a new one, I wanted to come back. My intent was to be more positive, and that still holds true. In the spirit of that, I went to the bookstore with the sole purpose of browsing for books to help me feel better about myself. Naturally I ended up in Self-Help, but a lot of those

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Life's been a bit much lately. Work has been tough, and I've been sick on and off for about a week now. Past four days straight with a head cold. But regardless I've gotten things done and had some fun moments. We went to Jujutsu a total of 3 times last week, and I'm lined up for twice this week. We had a good talk over the weekend. (a tough love sort of thing, but for once I took the right stuff

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I've been feeling less than motivated to write lately. It's not that I don't have anything to write about, but I'm having a hard time finding the words. I've finished a few more books (including 4 large comics and an actual paperback!) which have been pretty good all around. Friday Bret and I saw Scott Pilgrim, which was great! Definitely a dvd we're going to want. Bret and I are in the target

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Yesterday we went to the Ren faire. Yes, we went on the very last day of the season. No that wasn't intentional. But let me tell you, it did work out! We left very late in the day, which irritated me a bit, but the lines weren't as bad as I feared they would be. In fact, the place was almost as empty as it would have been if there were rain. And it wasn't too cold either. The first show we saw

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Yesterday we went to the Ren faire. Yes, we went on the very last day of the season. No that wasn't intentional. But let me tell you, it did work out! We left very late in the day, which irritated me a bit, but the lines weren't as bad as I feared they would be. In fact, the place was almost as empty as it would have been if there were rain. And it wasn't too cold either. The first show we saw

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Thursday was revolved around fixing the car. Again. Not exactly my favorite thing to do. There was also some miscommunication between Bret and me, which led to even more irritation. But we did work it out, and also started discussing buying a new car. We're a little undecided on whether it will be a replacement or a second car. Likely we'll get a second car, and I'll be the primary driver for the

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Monday we went back to jujutsu. That was a little rough! I was sore from the rolls (not falls, my bad) and I was having a hard time getting up and down off the ground. I was tender through the rest, but that was the worst bit. Bret was great though, he worked out with me primarily. Since he was teaching, he let me not take any falls. I think we worked really well together. It was kind of a relief

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Saturday I worked for a couple hours first thing. I processed over 65 investigations in just over 2 hours. Yes that's impressive! :) I stopped by the fabric store and picked up fabric for a couple new projects for myself. (and Some for a bag for Melissa) I'm pretty excited to make a couple skirts and bags for myself akshully. Bret and I had an emotional but I think good talk and exchange of

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So I heard that song on KLove Wednesday as I was driving to the post office on my lunch. (I Had to ship out the swap package.) It's a really upbeat song about how we already have everything we need to be happy. Obviously it's talking about God's love. (I Say obviously because it was on KLove.) But I interpreted it as more than that. I think we can create our own happiness. It of course helps that

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For dinner last night we made free-range organic German sausages. We cooked them as beer brats, this time in Fat Tire. I think the citrus from the Blue Moon work much better, but this was still tasty enough that I seriously overate. :) We also grilled the fresh corn I bought. I am going to pick up some more the next time I'm at the market.  We did some more Starcraft, and I packed up my Mr. Bento

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This song has been stuck in my head since yesterday when my phone randomly unpaused pandora and started playing it. :) At least the electronic-ghosts in my house have good taste! Yesterday was a very busy day for me, even though I only left the house twice and I was gone for less than two hours total. I got up at about 7 or so. I decided to make the most of my day and head out to the Farmer's

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Last night we went to Ann and James' place for dinner. Genna and Frank came too, and it was a blast! I really enjoyed seeing everyone, and Ann put together a great dinner. Frank did a great job keeping everyone entertained with his crazy work stories. He's been there for gang fights, and craps games being broken up in high schools. He also managed to stop Transformers production two days in a row

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I am really enjoying the book Animal, Vegetable, Miracle. The ideas and stories in this book are amazing! It's very inspiring. I've already started to make dinner from scratch more often, and I've been teaching myself how to make bread and the like. I've wanted chickens or quails for years, and this is just reaffirming that idea. I'm also more inspired to actually garden. I understand the timing 

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Last night we did the Bday thing with my family at last. I was hoping it was about KT and me. I didn't really want all the spotlight on me so long after my actual birthday. But apparently she had already celebrated. (Even I gave her the present I made last weekend.) I think I'm ready to be very very done with the family birthday thing. I don't like to be surrounded by people who are waiting for

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First of all, yes there really is a song called Opossum. After jujutsu last night, we came home through the alley, so we walked through the yard. Bret being both blind and observant thought he saw a bunny in the yard. He told me to walk slowly along the sidewalk, so I did. I was completely ignorant as he's slowly walking through the yard. I'm just chatting away about some throw or another that I

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Yesterday was a pretty great day overall. Work was a killer, but there are just days like that. On facebook I posted that I wanted to listen to some more podcasts, and Jamie responded with her favorite minister podcast. I listened to it and it really spoke to me. I've been thinking about Christianity a lot lately, and about what it means to me. So I went and found another series of christian

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Friday night ended on a down note. We went to Jeff's going away party, and I stupidly broke my rule of only one drink. I got over emotional, felt bad about being emotional at a party that was so not about me, which made me more emotional. I think they understood (kinda) but I know I did bad, so I'm still unhappy about it. Saturday was the family summer birthdays with Bret's family, which wasn't

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So my life has been a little bit up and down lately. Tuesday, down. Wednesday, up. Thursday and Friday, up-ish? Well, I explained the discussion from Tuesday, so no need to rehash that. Wednesday, I was way down in the dumps, but Bret was very upbeat and excited towards me. He was friendly and showered me with attention and compliments. I wasn't totally sure where this was all coming from, so I

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I went to jujutsu last night, finally! It's something that really motivates me to get my own car so that I can go on my own, and make my own priorities. It was a pretty large class, but I ended up being the only colored belt with a bunch of white belts. They weren't bad or anything, but it made me feel like an underacheiver. This is something I want to improve for myself. I put up a flier at work

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Friday night I visited my Grandma in the hospital. She's doing ok, but I'm still worried. She was happy, and didn't get too tired from us being there. My aunt and uncle were there for a bit too, so I got to say hi. It's was over all a good, but with a tinge of worry, family get together. Yesterday I spent the morning by myself. I went to the library, then cleaned around the kitchen and baked

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I'm now 23! This week has been a little crazy. Monday, not much happened. We watched Lie to Me, then went to bed. Tuesday my grandma had a stroke. She's ok now, but they're doing tests to try and prevent it from happening again. I wanted to go to see her, but I was worried about getting in the way. We watched The Good Guys and Hells Kitchen, Bret installed his video card (finally) and I talked to

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I woke up early this morning and decided to let Bret sleep in before we headed out. I started playing my birthday gift, Dragon Quest 9, which is more fun than I thought it would be. Unfortunatly we ended up being lazy and not going to the ren faire. It was mostly because I was feeling undecided about going. We grilled for lunch, beer brauts and corn, and I cut up some watermellon. We tried the

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Last night Bret went to the Bachelor Party for Zach. He had a good time that he told me about this morning. He met a couple of friends-for-the-night, and started a Zach-parade. Luckily he did not find the fight he was looking for! I worked a little late, then came home and cleaned a bit. I had a pretty nice evening to myself. This morning I went back into work for overtime, yay... But I was able

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Tuesday was a bad night turned good. We drove out to go to Jujutsu, but I'd forgotten that the summer quarter was over at COD. So no class... But we met up with my mom and Tommy instead and went to dinner at Domo 77. I had a lot of fun, though it kind of seemed like all three of them wanted me to entertain them... My brother is turning into a young man. It makes me wistful. :) When driving,

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I asked Bret for a song title, first on his mind, so that I could name this post. He not only gave me the title (it's by Eve 6) but he treated me to a mini preformence. It was awesome! So it's been a little bit since I posted. I mentioned my cousin's baby last week. She was born healthy. He name is Maisie, which I think is just the cutest! I need to figure out a proper gift for her, as she's the

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Three or Four years ago I had my summer of part time jobs. I worked selling children from Africa (I mean asking for donation for their villages) for a whole day. I worked at Jewel for a week, until they flipped out at me wanting a lunch in my 8 hour shift then asked me to finished out a shift where I crushed my hand on the meat slicer. The best was dog walking for a month. I would've stuck with

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Ok, that's a movie title, but it's still what I'm doing right now. I'm at the social security office to change my name right now, and I'm beginning to think I should have asked for the whole day off. I find it preferable not to have deadlines for later in the day if I have to do something in which I cannot control the time. So I was in there for an hour and a half, and while I easily could

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Supposely the next big purchase will be a car for me - after the video card of course :P Well I saw this BMW Wednesday night, and it sure fits the bill for cuteness! OMW home now, and I will be making my little piggies cute to match my dress for today. :)Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.7

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This song is entirely stuck in my head! But unfortunatly I only know about 2 lines... At least I like Toby Keith. I will have to devote some time today to listening to music. :)Yesterday was fun in it's own way. I used public transportation for more than work for once. I took the bus to JoAnn Fabrics and the movies, then home from there. I bought some cute canvas, I'm going to try making a

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I've decided to label each post with a song name. Considering the title of the blog it only make sense after all!! This song is about prioritizing the important things in life. Inspired :) Yesterday my mom and KT picked me up from work and we went to D'Agustino's who has AMAZING calzones btw. We then went to Ikea which was kinda a waste of time since I didn't buy anything, though I ended up

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I finally got book 11 of the Wheel of Time. I picked it up from the Library yesterday. I'm so excited about it! The first part is in the POV of characters I don't really care about....but they are addressing Perrin and his wife right away. He's definitely my favorite character. So steadfast and levelheaded. Now that I'm thinking about it, there are parts of him in Bret. Speaking of Bret, I talked

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So that title has nothing to do with anything, other than it's the song I was listening to when I started this post. Work was pretty good today. My error log was reasonably sized, and I worked an hour overtime. Go me! Well really that's not anything new. But I did work out for an hour after clocking out. And that does feel pretty good. Definitely need to make this a habit. It would have taken

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Well, I was mildly productive today. Play my gameboy some more. Slept in, and took a nap. Not too happy with myself over that one actually. Didn't actually make it outside today... I did finalize my plans for my swap kits. I need to make a sample item for the crochet kit, and but a fit and fresh lunch box for the bento kit. Then I need to put together the how-to packet for the bento and they'll

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There is one big difference between right now and last fall. Last fall Bret was away on business and I missed him. Right now Bret is away on vacation and I miss him AND I miss all of the fun I know I would be having. But on the bright side I am having fun here too. Gamed for the first time in what, 2? 3? months. Kinda feel like I'm getting back into the swing of things with this character. James

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I started this week feeling blah, but right now life seems pretty ok! Having fun at work (I know, oxy-moron) and can't wait for the weekend! A little down that Bret's out of town for the next 8 days, but also excited because I get to do my own thing. Been enjoying lolcats and zero punctuation today, which gives me enjoyable memory activation of Buckwheat and makes me want to buy (and maybe even

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I need to get my life into a more upbeat mode. I've been telling myself for months (years really) that I need to journal, and journal right. By journaling right I mean that I need to be positive and not use this as an opportunity to whine about everything that's "wrong" in my life. And honestly there is a lot that's right. :)For one thing, I'm freaking married!! I know, I'm young. But I'm happy

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